Life's ever-changing...

I'm so tired of what's happening now. Work, school, the break-up. pff. gee, leave me alone.

If you ever go read up on my horoscope, you'd probably realise that what is described about me is true to a certain degree. I'll never be satisfied with what or who i have and i'll always be thinking that there'll be someone better for me and just keep searching. Seb's nice, too nice. Too much for me to comprehend rite now. I need space, time alone.

On the otherhand, Jase has appeared and put me in doubts again. I swear i will not let the past catch up on me, ever. He's nice, young, but not too young, playful but family oriented. Gosh, what is happening?? And i realise how small this world really is... his sista actually knows sufiya! Faints faints faints. I wish i was in heaven now. Maybe hell wouldn't be bad either. I just need to go some place else.

Princess suggested that we should go on our princess-steward trip again and i'm really so totally excited about it! I just miss her. She's been caught up with work, school, life... pretty much the same shit as me i guess. Just hope she gets some rest... gosh, my superwoman merlai.

Last night was to zouk. Went drinking at The Cube before heading to zouk. Sometimes, it's not so bad being in a club alone. You hear what you hear and see what you see, alone. pretty cool i must say. Now, surprise surprise, seb and jase were both at zouk! i really don't need this senerio now... thankfully seb was with his friends and didn't give a damn about me being there. For a point in my life, i felt like i didn't owe anybody anything. I could just be myself, because once again, it was a beautiful story with a not so happy ending. Tears flowed again, but i didn't know why, it jus did... so unstoppingly... Please let time stand still, i need to run away...

~something in the way you look at me~

Just another saturday...

The morning found my at old turf city again, touch with the girls was fun, cept for the occasional screams i got from being "blur" on the field... hmmm... Not sure if we won the game but apparently we tied. yup.

Was back home in the afternoon to find mummy in bed with a bad headache, made her take pills and then sent her to slp again. Hope mummy's alright now.

Evening was spent at Marina square, dinner... or was it lunch... hmm, maybe it was lunchner... heh. Then it was to marina south to witness the ever amazing sparks of the finale of the fireworks festival. Nice.

Am back at bro's hse now. Tired and almost very drained out... pff.

Nite.

Ridiculous!

Early Thursday morning and i'm suppose to be at work at 10am... oh gee, look at what's the time? It's 10:05 and i'm still home. All cuz of an irresponsible partner.

Today's event covers WCG (a big event) and she calls me up in the morning saying her eye is infected! Couldn't she at least call Ms. G earlier yesterday so that today wouldn't happen? Now i have to go to the freaking office myself and prepare 12 freaking cartons, chilled, and i have to carry everything up to the convention center myself! RIDICULOUS i say...

Arrgghh, never been so pissed off in the morning.

pff.

Precious moments...

Charlie boy boy is finally 2 yrs old, he got his cake, the attention wanted, and many many nice prezzies from everyone present.

Jason brought Max over jus to be shocked by charlie's agressiveness, one bark and it's "don't fwen you already"... But thanx for coming anyway. Princess and silver couldn't make it though, but their kind thoughts are much appreciated.

Gee, my comp's alive and i think it's bad. Seeing things that i thought i lost when compy died. Brings back memories again... Why can't i jus seem to let go? Is it that difficult? I've been a fool and i still don't see the light.

Sigh.

And this song just played...

"Even though it's been so long
My love for you keeps going strong
I remember the things that we used to do
A kiss in the rain 'til the sun shine through
I try to deny it but I'm still in love with you.

I miss you like crazy,
I miss you like crazy
Ever since you went away,
every hour of every day
I miss you like crazy,
I miss you like crazy
No matter what I say or do
There's just no getting over you."

Dedicated to you know who...

Something to look forward to ...

Today, yes today is the day... well, not only is it our nation's birthday, but it is my dear charlie boy boy's birthday! He's 2 today and i'm so so proud of him. Oh, he's my doggie by the way.

Birthday party's at 5pm today. Gotta go prepare and get his prezzy now!

Oh, anyway, last nite at zouk was fun as usual. =)

Ciao ciao!

The Revival

Howdy mate!

Yes yes, my world is alive again... and so is my dearie computer.

It's been some time and much has happened, i'll leave that to memories that only i can remember.

Today's shift got cancelled but i still went for the golf briefing. Not that i've had the sudden urge to take up golf... but the next few golf events is under my charge. Boring.

Met up with Mr. Jase to watch LakeHouse. Nice. Then it was food, food, and more glorious food. The view of passing cars was delightful too. Gee, i realise that sometimes things jus pass us by so quickly that we don't even take time to appreciate the small things in life. For this realisation, "I love you all my frens... my sweets... and of course, my bestest bestie".

I've really never had so much ice cream in a day but thank you Jase, your company was much appreciated. =) Thanx for the long walk too... burned off quite abit i guess...

Home early. Mummy's not coming home tonight. hmmm. i miss her.

Oh, i miss my princess too... sob sob...

Later aights!