A new start...

Today marked the last day of work in RedBull. I know i will miss them all... everyone who's groomed me to who and what i am today. Thank you.

I'm now preparing myself, to embarked on a bigger vision in life. A new job that would open new doors for me.

I know that i need a break, but i've got no time left. Work starts on the 3rd and i'm looking forward to it. Colleages seem like nice people so i'm hoping i'll enjoy myself during my stay there.

Life is moving on, and so must i.

I'm gonna take the first step. Please hold my hand.

*I'd like to walk the talk*

Yours truly...

I've known you from day one and you got me at "hello"
The friend i found in you was nothing more that i would ask for
I've fallen and you were there to pick me up
Cried, and you lent me your shoulder to sob on
I cherish so much of what has happened between us
But i guess it's just come to a stage where i'm just scared to confess
Because we've drifted so far apart
We read about each others lives and stopped telling each other
I don't want it to be this way, i've missed you dearly
As the days go by, i constantly ponder upon what and how we used to be
I missed the times we were so close, and you were my confidant
Our lives are gonna change after this year passes
But i hold the hope of still being your steward, yours truly
You know i'll always be here, i'll always be who i am
I've changed because of the confusion i'm going through
I wanna be able to sit by the riverside once again, with you only...
To laugh, to cry, to share everything we're going through
I do hope that one day, it'll happen again.
I've never lost hope, it's just a feeling of being lost
And that i can't even tell my closest friend because of so much that has changed between us.
I miss you, i truly do.
I'd wish upon a star tonight
That we'd be how we used to be again...

*yours truly*

merrry christmas to you too...

If...

If i could turn back time, i promise you i'll not be who i am today.
I know i've disappointed you. I'm sorry...

-ain't no title for this-

I feel so dumb, constantly trapped in my own world and caught in situations i don't wanna be in. This has cause much pain and upset between the world and me and so very often, i know it's my fault.

Why can't reality be a lil' more lenient... a lil' more understanding...

Am at the phase of life where i don't know what i want anymore. It's like i've come to another cross-road, and i'm stuck in the middle of no direction what-so-ever.

I miss the girls, but i know that somehow, things have changed... i don't know why, but it's as such. I miss my princess, but i guess whatever we had has somehow been kept to sweet history... my heart aches at this but there's nothing i can do.

It's perculiar how life treats you sometimes. The butterfly effect: What if a certain event didn't happen in your life? Would things still be the same? Something to think about. pff.

Just spoke to korkor a few days ago, seems like he's the only person that will ever know my and understand how i feel. I'm thankful that at least i've got him.

Life's pretty messy now.
I need time-out.
I need space.
I need to rationalise.
I need to be alone.
I need to be who i wanna be.

Fullstop.

Endless fun...

Last night saw Steph and myself at Zouk...hmmm, what's new rite? But the thing is that not only were we in the company of our crazy frenz, but we partied hard and had loads of fun!

Shir, 18 yr old neighbour, jas, aaron, ben, alex, johnny... Thanx for the night and supper!

Today's gonna be another day on the water, riding with Cheryl and the rest, and it's bbq tonight! Hope the chicken fillet's good for everyone!

I'm so happy today, i don't know why... Maybe it's cuz i'm free again... heh.

*lalalalalala*