My canvas of life...

Life is just a canvas, and on it, we choose what is to be painted.
I've enjoyed painting every single detail on this canvas of mine, every colour, every stroke...
But now, I've messed up my art and it's time to start all over.
The strokes and colours will be different, nothing will ever be the same again. A promise i'm making to myself - to never paint the same picture again.

*memories - will forever last*

I took the first step, but you crippled me.

Life - A joke.

Sometimes people just want to live in simplity. However, simplicity is not often acheived because of the vices that cling to this world. Some live to enjoy life, whilst some live to be a pain to others.

I thought i'd live my life as happy as a girl could be, until i found out that what i'd been believing in all this while was simply a lie. You can't have the best of both worlds, what you've done to me, i'll forgive, but i'll never forget. How could you even bring yourself to do it? I didn't ask for much, just for your support, but why... why did it have to be you?

It hurts much more than anything that has ever happened in my 21 years of life and now i finally see the true side of you. Was it always a competition to you? Did anyone think about how i would have felt? It cuts deeper than a knife... and the scar remains forever.

I've never once hated a person... but now, i despise you.


*you've gotta learn to take responsibility for your actions, trust is earned*

Ain't no life no more...

Time is passing, and so are the days that go by one after another...
Life mainly revolves around work now and i'm not enjoying it.
I miss life as it was, happy and carefree... ok, maybe not exactly happy all the time, but at least i had time to myself.
Work's taking it's toil on me and i'm toally pissed at pple in the office. The young and inexperienced. pff.

I need to find time, to have a life again, to just spend days in the sun, nights out with the girls... yup, i wanna do that soon.

I'm still on probation though... maybe it's just about time i left.

*The clock goes tick tick tick...*

Thank you...

Thank you sweetie, for letting me know that at least someone still cares.
I was there for you like how you were for me so no need for the formalities aight?

So, now life's started with my new job. Ain't exactly pleased with it but oh well, it has to start somewhere i guess... Partying's stopped, drinks aside. Been working my ass off from 9 in the mornings... gosh, i wanna run away, find someone who'd shower me with love and gold... haha... dreaming dreaming...

I'm holding on... truely...

A new start...

Today marked the last day of work in RedBull. I know i will miss them all... everyone who's groomed me to who and what i am today. Thank you.

I'm now preparing myself, to embarked on a bigger vision in life. A new job that would open new doors for me.

I know that i need a break, but i've got no time left. Work starts on the 3rd and i'm looking forward to it. Colleages seem like nice people so i'm hoping i'll enjoy myself during my stay there.

Life is moving on, and so must i.

I'm gonna take the first step. Please hold my hand.

*I'd like to walk the talk*

Yours truly...

I've known you from day one and you got me at "hello"
The friend i found in you was nothing more that i would ask for
I've fallen and you were there to pick me up
Cried, and you lent me your shoulder to sob on
I cherish so much of what has happened between us
But i guess it's just come to a stage where i'm just scared to confess
Because we've drifted so far apart
We read about each others lives and stopped telling each other
I don't want it to be this way, i've missed you dearly
As the days go by, i constantly ponder upon what and how we used to be
I missed the times we were so close, and you were my confidant
Our lives are gonna change after this year passes
But i hold the hope of still being your steward, yours truly
You know i'll always be here, i'll always be who i am
I've changed because of the confusion i'm going through
I wanna be able to sit by the riverside once again, with you only...
To laugh, to cry, to share everything we're going through
I do hope that one day, it'll happen again.
I've never lost hope, it's just a feeling of being lost
And that i can't even tell my closest friend because of so much that has changed between us.
I miss you, i truly do.
I'd wish upon a star tonight
That we'd be how we used to be again...

*yours truly*

merrry christmas to you too...

If...

If i could turn back time, i promise you i'll not be who i am today.
I know i've disappointed you. I'm sorry...