Frightful...

Yesterday night marked the worst night in this new year.

My life's been upside down ever since we broke up and i guess it's just human nature to not be able to forget so quickly. I realised that that is not the case for some people.
Barely 3 weeks after we've broken up and he's seeing someone else. "I need time"... that has now become utter bullshit. To say you love someone and to be holding another girl in his arms! F**k off!

I don't know if i should be sad, disappointed or what should i be feeling? I was totally shattered... cried my heart out. I thought we could give the relationship another chance. After yesterday, i know now that it's time to move on.

Happy memories we've shared and i'll always cherish. I never wanna see the face of the one i once called "sweetheart"... it's just too painful, maybe it'll be easier to let go like this.

Reading all the e-mails and testimonials, we were once such a flawless couple. Did we give in to temptation?

He told me that he went out with those girls so that he could get over this matter. What the hell was he thinking??!!! I thought that loving someone would be to give time, to wait, to think about how much you need each other... and there he was, seeking pleasure in some other girl from China Black. Bitch.

I never did anything when i went out with Seb, i begged for a chance, he wrote me off.
I was so happy to see him yesterday, but it all turned out to be the greatest mistake i've ever made in my life. To love someone so deeply who has now turned into a bastard. Time brings about changes, why did it have to end this way?

I wish him the best... really, that he'll find someone more worthy of him.

*Live not to regret... i've regretted*